God bless America

The trip to Oregon went really well. No problems other than the grandparents are getting older and slower. Going to the store with my grandpa was an excercise in paitence.

We went to the church that Tara grew up at. As a special treat they had a veterans day service. It was a real joy to sit through as I was throwing up in my mouth every couple of minutes. The best part was when they played the songs for the branches of the armed forces and asked people to stand if they served in the army, navy etc. I almost burst out laughing which probably would not have been appropriate. Tara kept apologizing but I realize that for many people this is what Christianity is so I sucked it up. I realize there were people there that were just as uncomfortable with it as I was and on the other hand it really was good for some people so who am I to shove my opinion down their throat? It's not my place to do so.

I talked to Jay about feeling conflicted at times this weekend because I felt like maybe I should have stayed for Garrett and Tessa. He told me that I had not done anything bad and that they know I support them and that I am going to be there for them long term. They have a really strong support system with family so that did make the decision easier. I am glad I went and I don't regret it but this was a time that I wish I could have been in two places at once.